Back To December - Taylor Swift

Back To December

I'm so glad you made time to see me.

How's life? Tell me how's your family?

I haven't seen them in a while.

You've been good, busier than ever,

We small talk, work and the weather,

Your guard is up and I know why.

Because the last time you saw me still burned in the back of your mind.

You gave me roses and I left them there to die.

So this is me swallowing my pride,

Standing in front of you saying, "I'm sorry for that night,"

And I go back to December all the time.

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you.

Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine.

I'd go back to December, turn around and make it all right.

I go back to December all the time.

These days I haven't been sleeping,

Staying up, playing back myself leavin'.

When your birthday passed and I didn't call.

And I think about summer, all the beautiful times,

I watched you laughing from the passenger side.

Realized I loved you in the fall.

And then the cold came, the dark days when fear crept into my mind

You gave me all your love and all I gave you was "Goodbye".

So this is me swallowing my pride

Standing in front of you saying, "I'm sorry for that night."

And I go back to December all the time.

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you,

Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine.

I'd go back to December, turn around and change my own mind

I go back to December all the time.

I miss your tanned skin, your sweet smile,

So good to me, so right

And how you held me in your arms that September night

The first time you ever saw me cry.

Maybe this is wishful thinking,

Probably mindless dreaming,

But if we loved again, I swear I'd love you right.

I'd go back in time and change it but I can't.

So if the chain is on your door I understand.

But this is me swallowing my pride

Standing in front of you saying, "I'm sorry for that night."

And I go back to December...

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you,

Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine.

I'd go back to December, turn around and make it all right.

I'd go back to December, turn around and change my own mind

I go back to December all the time.

All the time.

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※ Because the last time you saw me still burned in the back of your mind. You gave me roses and I left them there to die.

왜냐하면 네 마음 속에 아직 불씨(나를 사랑하는 마음)가 남아 있을 때, 내게 준 장미를 내가 죽게 버려 두었기 때문에...어쩌구 저쩌구

in the back of / at the back of : behind ; in the innermost part 

innermost = inmost

inmost : most inward ; farthest in : the inmost region of the forest.

most intimate : deepest ; one's inmost thoughts [feelings] / His inmost desire is to be a politician.

intimate 

1. far within ; inward : one's intimate feelings.

2. closely bound up ; close in friendship ; very familiar  : intimate friendship / intimate friends.

3. resulting from  close study ; intimate knowledg of  art.

creep v.i (-crept-crept) 1. move along with the body near to the ground or floor. ; go on with one's hands and knees; crawl : A baby learns to creep before it     learns to walk. / creep along the ground. 2. 《of a plant》 grow along the ground, a wall, or other surface : Ivy creeps over a wall. 3. walk cautiously without making a noise : The thief crept closer and closer,